My kids don't love me because I treat them like kings. My kids love me because I'm their mom. They don't love me because of anything I do... they just do.
I don't love my kids because they are perfect little angels. I love them because I do. No reason, I just do.
God loves me because He sees my true worth. He doesn't see the mistakes I make. He sees me as full of worth. He sees all my potential. He sees me.
I have a difficult time loving God because I see Him as all the people who try and tell me how I'm supposed to act. I see Him as humans have described Him through words and deeds. The people who do see my mistakes. The people who can't see past my faults (Bless my heart). I don't see Him because of the forgery I made of Him out of religion.
I realized today that Christians should act like Christians because all the Hell-bound humans are watching. They shouldn't be acting like Christians because someone is watching (church superiors or godless heathens). They should be drawing close to God. Period. The rest will follow. Doing this, will teach "less mature" followers to do the same. People who have not yet learned their identity in Christ are going to watch and learn from their "superiors" aka elders, pastors, teachers,ect. Are you teaching them how to behave or how to act? Maybe instead, teach them to grow close to God.
My view of God is warped. I have to go back and stop believing a lot before I have a clear picture again. I know I learn differently then most people. I learn by the attitude instead of by words. "Love one another" is not a list of Do's and Don'ts. It's a heart. It's God's heart. You can't learn God's heart. It's something that grows in you the closer you get to Him.
I hate that I can't see God as He is because I chose to learn from the hearts I've learned from. I'm so sick of people (myself included) who try and use their knowledge that they learned about God to impress, hurt, demean, or exalt themselves above others.
He who walks with the wise grows wise.
He who walks with people who seek God, grows to seek God.
The companion of fools, suffers harm.
No one who ever experienced the Love of God said, "oh, you know what, I don't think that's right." Because it was just THAT good. I know no one is perfect, but if you are incapable of actually loving people, just stop pretending! You hurt them in the long run. And no, it's not their fault.
But I do think it's true. You have to be capable of receiving love from God in order to reciprocate it.
From Bondage: Show me who God is.
To Freedom: Who are you, God?
